Letting go..

Something you have heard many times in your life. It’s raining badly and I just need to get it out of my chest.

Most of brave people I know, they know how to push through, when to do it and when they should stop. You see, when we are letting go of things that burdened us, it was never meant to show that we are weak and careless. It righteously shows that we are even braver to take risk of getting hurt and less harm for others. Wiser. Stronger.

It’s a tough season for me lately, juggling between so many things, one mishap to another. It eats you, drains you. But deep down inside I know I can make it through this and I also know that the worst part is when I’m being in this taking one little step one day at a time to get out of it.

I’m a list-freak, I created a lot of lists in my life that I cannot count anymore. So here’s the list for today:

  • Let go of things that you cannot control. I know this sentence for around ten years now, nevertheless it took me a deep and long process of sleepless night to remember it back again.
  • Let go of pain you cannot get rid of. Pain. It is always necessary to have it, it reminds you that you are human that you feel and you sense. Embrace it. Try things: sing it away, sleep it away, work it away, smoke it away, drink it away, etc.
  • Let go of things you cannot have.  Your mind and your heart might sometimes know that this one particular is the perfect one, it feels so right and logically speaking is also correct. And then, breaking news: you cannot have it. Let it fly and set it free, as one wise man said: what’s meant for you, will come back to you. What’s not meant for you, will never be for you. Even when it feels right. Yes, even when it feels sooo right.
  • Let go of that exhaustion. Tough season is tiring, but you have to get it out of your system. You have to be able to lay down and force your mind to not think about anything. Not even solutions and plans. I know it is always good to make plans, but it forces your mind too much at some point and you need to stop.

So.. Things, persons, I’m letting you go. I’ve always been so clear in conveying my view, but you seem to either reserve your answer or contradict me. I need to put my life at ease, so I’m letting you all to fly away and be free. I wish I could fly with you and see the world together but my wings are broken. So damaged that I will have to stay on the ground and only look up to the sky.

Rain..rain.. you’re killing me inside. You’re cold and beast. You don’t wash away the sorrow, you speak my tears in a precise way. Thank you and thank you.

-Sara-

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How to Preach To Yourself Under Pressure

First thing, remind yourself that there is no victory if there is no battle. This will mean that there will be a lot of things in life that will crush you, but you have to see every single breakdown as a chance to grow, to become greater. I’ve met a lot of people with great souls and the more time I spend with them the more stories I hear about their struggles in the past. And what they all have in common is: they flew high, fell so hard but they bounced even higher after the fall. They went through it, they didn’t run from it.  They took valuable lesson out of it and carry on.

I was in Sydney a couple of weeks ago and I went to Hillsong Church together with my family, the guest pastor was Steven Furtick, founder and lead pastor of Elevation Church based in Charlotte, NC. He was preaching about “How to Preach to Yourself Under Pressure” and I think it was a great message for all of us as we all most of the time are under pressure.

 

NB: this post is written based on my notes that I took during the sermon so I’m quoting Pastor Furtick here and there.

Pastor Steven Furtick told us that there are three things we need to say to ourselves, which are:

1. “I’ve been here before, this isn’t my first time”

You might thought that you are over some of hard things in your life and you really thank God that it’s over. And then comes this “Oh no, not again”-moment (ONNAM). Yes, same hard situations you once had in the past, you thought you mastered it but it’s repeating again. Well, He knows best, if you’re having the ONNAM that means you’re not done yet. I’m not saying that it won’t happen to you again if you have mastered it, I’m saying that you’ll say I’ve been here before, this isn’t my first time instead. And the best part is that you went through it before and today still it’s the same God in me and for me. What’s keeping you from conquering the situation? NOTHING. Carry on!

 

2. “I’m not that important”

As bizzare as it may sound, once in awhile that sentence and thought can calm us down in the midst of pressure. The truth is worrying doesn’t take you anywhere, the sun will still rise in the morning and it will set in the afternoon. It has nothing to do with how you feel, what you do or else. You are not the centre of the world. So when you need to do something that you don’t like, tell yourself that you are not that important: you don’t have to do it, but you get to do it. That should make a lot of difference, because when you get to do it that means you are given a chance to execute it. It is not like as if you have to do it otherwise the world will crumble or anything. This is a great sentence by Pastor Furtick as a reminder: It’s not the load, but how you carry it that breaks you down“. Remember, you are not that important *wink*.

 

3. “I’m better under pressure.”

I’m hesitating to say this sentence out loud, because I feel like I’m attracting pressures to come to me. But, it’s absolutely true! You can’t win anything if you don’t have something to overcome. Look at my favourite apostle, Paul. I always think that I might have gone cray! if I was him. It amazes me how he can write tons of beautiful letters while he was in prison. He didn’t have the pity party while he was locked up, instead he wrote many amazing letters that help us today, thousand years after. I will say this: a great soul, a great person, does not build in a night. Pressure produces power and perseverance. Most of the time it will show the strength that you thought you never had. So remember this every time you are under pressure: it’s a chance, given to you, to grow, to become greater than before. Take it.

 

 

Stay awesome!

-Sara

About love

Love is pain
Don’t be scared, don’t run
Don’t close your heart

Sky has no limit, my heart too
Let it be friends with time
It reveals, it heals

Right words, right words
They don’t matter
The water is crystal clear I can see through

Thought the mornings are the hardest
But apparently the nights too
As well as days

It says “good night, good night”
But it lied and it crushed me
So resting mind breaths peace

Fly fly away
Sleep now with the stars
Warm sun will kiss you

Go on sleep with the stars

May 2014

Don’t Repeat The Hurt. Delete It!

Dear friends, please acknowledge that the author of what you are about to read is Pastor Rick Warren. I have his daily devotional sent to me regularly everyday and this one, I feel this strong urge to share it. It may not clearly visible, but am sure there are broken souls who need this. Sharing is caring! : )

Happy reading!

 

Author: Rick Warren

“Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and let it drop (leave it, let it go), in order that your Father Who is in heaven may also forgive you your own failings and shortcomings and let them drop.” (Mark 11:25 AMP)

When people hurt us, we have two natural tendencies: remember and retaliate.

But that’s not what 1 Corinthians 13:5 tell us to do: “Love keeps no record of being wronged”(NLT).

So how should you respond to the people who have hurt you? How do you handle all of those wounds and hurts that you’ve stockpiled in your memory?

You don’t repeat them; you delete them. Let it go. Forgive, and get on with your life.

When we get hurt, we tend to repeat that hurt in three ways: emotionally in our minds, relationally as a weapon, and practically by telling other people.

First, we repeat it by going over and over it in our mind. But resentment is self-destructive. It only perpetuates the pain. It never heals. It never solves anything. Whatever you think about most is what you move toward. If all you think about is how much you’ve been hurt in the past, you’ll only move toward the past. But if you focus on the future, you move toward the future. If you focus on potential, you move toward the potential.

Second, we repeat our hurt in relationships. We use it as wedges and weapons. “Remember when you did that?” “But you did this!”

The Bible says in Proverbs 17:9, “Love forgets mistakes. Nagging about them parts the best of friends” (LB). It also parts marriages and every other relationship you have. Nagging doesn’t work.

Third, we repeat our hurt by telling it to other people. It’s called gossip! We tell everybody else except God and the person with whom we have the problem.

Did you know that God hates gossip? He hates it as much as he hates pride, because that’s what gossip is. Gossip is pure and simple ego — trying to make ourselves look and feel better. Every time you share gossip, you are being prideful, and God hates pride and gossip.

Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love doesn’t repeat a wound so that it turns into resentment or gossip or pride. Love responds to hurt by letting it go.

“Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and let it drop (leave it, let it go), in order that your Father Who is in heaven may also forgive you your own failings and shortcomings and let them drop” (Mark 11:25 AMP).

Talk It Over

  • What hurt have you rehearsed over and over in your mind that you need to let go of today?
  • Why do you think it’s easier to nag about a mistake rather than forgive it? Is it really easier in the long run?
  • What do you need to change about the way you respond to gossip?

FORGIVENESS

There is always this tricky feeling inside of me whenever I think and talk about this particular subject. It’s very complicated yet very important thing that determines our relationship with God.

…and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;

Our lord Jesus Christ teaches us that forgiveness work two-ways between ourselves and others, and between ourselves and our Father. We will never have a clear relationship with God when we still have unforgiveness in our heart.

Do not suit yourself in a pity party where you kept saying:

“I’m so hurted.”

“The pain is unbearable that I cannot give forgiveness.”

How many times have you been hurting people without you even realized it? The sentence is just a gentle soft reminder for the fact that we are all sinner. None of us are in the position to judge others. However, don’t set your mind on your mistakes in the past, it won’t take you anywhere.

Who am I not to forgive for I have sinned and God forgave me anyway?

Let’s embrace our lives. It has the right amount of pleasure and pain. Choose to learn in every step of the way. Don’t hold grudge towards others, hatred eats your soul. You’re going down while the people you hate are living their lives just still.

Choose to be happy. Surround ourselves with family and friends who are full of joy.

Let us forgive and have a great 2014!

All Out of Love

It can be two things:

1. You gave it all to a person who means the world to you until you have nothing more.

2. You lost hope and you don’t trust the system of love anymore,

Both happened. Both no good.

Many things can drain love from your system. And when you are completely empty, bitterness clouds you from getting the best out of life. You have to have a solid love-source so that you will never run out of it and hence you can share it to others.

Most of the time this world is all about making a ‘good-investment’. While in earthly matters you have to consider a lot of things to make sure you’ll get the benefit, loving God is proven and guaranteed to let you gain a lot of benefits. If you let Him, He will make you a person who is never running out of love. Bitterness would be a non-existing word for you.

The truth is I have never seen a single person who is full of love and bitter at the same time. It’s a solid case, you have to get rid of bitterness so that you can be full of love, or (by your choice) the other way around.

To be steadily full of love, come to the right source, God.

I can do all this through him who gives me strength. (Phil 4:13)

His Grace is sufficient and we all know that it is true. So here’s what we are going to do: first time in the morning, come to the unlimited love-source, God, read that bible, pray.

Be someone who has so much love to give.

Be the light that brighten up the surrounding.

Be right that the wrong will be shameful.

Be so kind-hearted that crushes bad intention.

Be Christ-like that everyone can see His love inside of you.

I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. (Eph 3:16)

Love,

Sara

Let us say grace…

I would like to take the time to thank God for everything that He has given me in my life.

He has given me:

A great parent who taught me love and sincerity..

Two brothers who are amazingly protecting me from whatever harm may greet me..

Family who is so full of kindness and goodness..

Best friends who are like sisters who care and share laugh and tears together as we grow up..

Friends who brought clarity of how diverse and complicated people are that I learned to respect differences..

Talent that allows me to share my joy, my sadness, my belief to other people..

A job that is shaping my way of thinking about world..

Colleagues who believe in me and my work so that I always strive for the best outcome..

Dogs to take care of so that I learn comfort and responsibility at the same time..

Pain so that I got to bring my faith to another level and believe that it was all necessary for me to be the new and better me..

Patience so that I got to understand that You are in control of my life..

I may have ran out of positive adjectives to explain what God has given me throughout my life, but He is so great that He will keep giving what I cannot imagine. Something that I couldn’t think of.

Let us say grace!