About love

Love is pain
Don’t be scared, don’t run
Don’t close your heart

Sky has no limit, my heart too
Let it be friends with time
It reveals, it heals

Right words, right words
They don’t matter
The water is crystal clear I can see through

Thought the mornings are the hardest
But apparently the nights too
As well as days

It says “good night, good night”
But it lied and it crushed me
So resting mind breaths peace

Fly fly away
Sleep now with the stars
Warm sun will kiss you

Go on sleep with the stars

May 2014


Don’t Repeat The Hurt. Delete It!

Dear friends, please acknowledge that the author of what you are about to read is Pastor Rick Warren. I have his daily devotional sent to me regularly everyday and this one, I feel this strong urge to share it. It may not clearly visible, but am sure there are broken souls who need this. Sharing is caring! : )

Happy reading!


Author: Rick Warren

“Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and let it drop (leave it, let it go), in order that your Father Who is in heaven may also forgive you your own failings and shortcomings and let them drop.” (Mark 11:25 AMP)

When people hurt us, we have two natural tendencies: remember and retaliate.

But that’s not what 1 Corinthians 13:5 tell us to do: “Love keeps no record of being wronged”(NLT).

So how should you respond to the people who have hurt you? How do you handle all of those wounds and hurts that you’ve stockpiled in your memory?

You don’t repeat them; you delete them. Let it go. Forgive, and get on with your life.

When we get hurt, we tend to repeat that hurt in three ways: emotionally in our minds, relationally as a weapon, and practically by telling other people.

First, we repeat it by going over and over it in our mind. But resentment is self-destructive. It only perpetuates the pain. It never heals. It never solves anything. Whatever you think about most is what you move toward. If all you think about is how much you’ve been hurt in the past, you’ll only move toward the past. But if you focus on the future, you move toward the future. If you focus on potential, you move toward the potential.

Second, we repeat our hurt in relationships. We use it as wedges and weapons. “Remember when you did that?” “But you did this!”

The Bible says in Proverbs 17:9, “Love forgets mistakes. Nagging about them parts the best of friends” (LB). It also parts marriages and every other relationship you have. Nagging doesn’t work.

Third, we repeat our hurt by telling it to other people. It’s called gossip! We tell everybody else except God and the person with whom we have the problem.

Did you know that God hates gossip? He hates it as much as he hates pride, because that’s what gossip is. Gossip is pure and simple ego — trying to make ourselves look and feel better. Every time you share gossip, you are being prideful, and God hates pride and gossip.

Love keeps no record of wrongs. Love doesn’t repeat a wound so that it turns into resentment or gossip or pride. Love responds to hurt by letting it go.

“Whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him and let it drop (leave it, let it go), in order that your Father Who is in heaven may also forgive you your own failings and shortcomings and let them drop” (Mark 11:25 AMP).

Talk It Over

  • What hurt have you rehearsed over and over in your mind that you need to let go of today?
  • Why do you think it’s easier to nag about a mistake rather than forgive it? Is it really easier in the long run?
  • What do you need to change about the way you respond to gossip?


There is always this tricky feeling inside of me whenever I think and talk about this particular subject. It’s very complicated yet very important thing that determines our relationship with God.

…and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us;

Our lord Jesus Christ teaches us that forgiveness work two-ways between ourselves and others, and between ourselves and our Father. We will never have a clear relationship with God when we still have unforgiveness in our heart.

Do not suit yourself in a pity party where you kept saying:

“I’m so hurted.”

“The pain is unbearable that I cannot give forgiveness.”

How many times have you been hurting people without you even realized it? The sentence is just a gentle soft reminder for the fact that we are all sinner. None of us are in the position to judge others. However, don’t set your mind on your mistakes in the past, it won’t take you anywhere.

Who am I not to forgive for I have sinned and God forgave me anyway?

Let’s embrace our lives. It has the right amount of pleasure and pain. Choose to learn in every step of the way. Don’t hold grudge towards others, hatred eats your soul. You’re going down while the people you hate are living their lives just still.

Choose to be happy. Surround ourselves with family and friends who are full of joy.

Let us forgive and have a great 2014!

All Out of Love

It can be two things:

1. You gave it all to a person who means the world to you until you have nothing more.

2. You lost hope and you don’t trust the system of love anymore,

Both happened. Both no good.

Many things can drain love from your system. And when you are completely empty, bitterness clouds you from getting the best out of life. You have to have a solid love-source so that you will never run out of it and hence you can share it to others.

Most of the time this world is all about making a ‘good-investment’. While in earthly matters you have to consider a lot of things to make sure you’ll get the benefit, loving God is proven and guaranteed to let you gain a lot of benefits. If you let Him, He will make you a person who is never running out of love. Bitterness would be a non-existing word for you.

The truth is I have never seen a single person who is full of love and bitter at the same time. It’s a solid case, you have to get rid of bitterness so that you can be full of love, or (by your choice) the other way around.

To be steadily full of love, come to the right source, God.

I can do all this through him who gives me strength. (Phil 4:13)

His Grace is sufficient and we all know that it is true. So here’s what we are going to do: first time in the morning, come to the unlimited love-source, God, read that bible, pray.

Be someone who has so much love to give.

Be the light that brighten up the surrounding.

Be right that the wrong will be shameful.

Be so kind-hearted that crushes bad intention.

Be Christ-like that everyone can see His love inside of you.

I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. (Eph 3:16)



Let us say grace…

I would like to take the time to thank God for everything that He has given me in my life.

He has given me:

A great parent who taught me love and sincerity..

Two brothers who are amazingly protecting me from whatever harm may greet me..

Family who is so full of kindness and goodness..

Best friends who are like sisters who care and share laugh and tears together as we grow up..

Friends who brought clarity of how diverse and complicated people are that I learned to respect differences..

Talent that allows me to share my joy, my sadness, my belief to other people..

A job that is shaping my way of thinking about world..

Colleagues who believe in me and my work so that I always strive for the best outcome..

Dogs to take care of so that I learn comfort and responsibility at the same time..

Pain so that I got to bring my faith to another level and believe that it was all necessary for me to be the new and better me..

Patience so that I got to understand that You are in control of my life..

I may have ran out of positive adjectives to explain what God has given me throughout my life, but He is so great that He will keep giving what I cannot imagine. Something that I couldn’t think of.

Let us say grace!

Understand life, enjoy it and get the best out of it.

Allow me to share my notes from Festival of Life, which sermon was delivered by Joyce Meyer. This one is from the 1st session, in Jakarta on January 17th 2013.

Joyce used the analogy of the Israelites’ journey from Egypt to the promise land. I think this is brilliant. The question acted as a teaser was that why they had to take until 40 years to get to the promise land while distance wise they only needed couple of days to get there. The brilliant part was that God used those 40 years to shape them. As He is mighty, He could have just kept them safe and brought them to the promise land right away. This is exactly the same case as in our lives. We could have reached our destination faster if we listen to God. In all those 40 years, you can read it in the bible and find out how many times they complained, turned around from God and then blaming God for their miseries afterwards.

God is so in love with us and through hardship He lets us learn to depend on Him, to count on Him, and most of all to trust Him. I would see myself as a person who is solution-minded. I could easily get stressed out if people around me are talking about the same problem over and over again. And yet after a while they will do the same thing all over again. I managed my life just fine for I was always trying to be solution-minded. But we are human and we are so limited, so then once things got out of control and seemed like there’s no solution to the problem, that’s when our world starts falling apart.

Well, we could change things, some of them, but we definitely cannot change people because only God can change people. As I get to know God day by day, I learn to set my eyes on Him. We all know the truth and believe that:

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And My ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.” (Isaiah 55:8) NLT

“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them” (Romans 8:28) NLT

Our limited mind won’t get it, but have faith knowing that He will work things out. When you trust God, everything will start to fall just right in place.

Joyce also shared some of wrong thoughts that people usually have:

  • “My future depends on my past”

The truth is: it is never too late to start again, to have a new beginning, to cleaning up the mess and to start working on your life again. Why? Because if you have God, you have all you need. And how is that going to work? God has a good plan for you, but you have stop looking back. God has promised this >> Isaiah 61:7.

“Instead of shame and dishonor, you will enjoy a double share of honor. You will posses a double portion of prosperity in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours” (NLT)

God will restore what devil took from you.

  • “This is too hard”

The truth is: If God says so, nothing is too hard. If God wants you to do it, you can do it. As the children of God, we are anointed to do hard things. The last sentence may sound scary or ironic, but I’m so convinced to say that the bigger your problem, the bigger your testimony. God provides everything just enough for you to go through what He puts you through, but the choice is still yours whether you want to use all the equipment provided or to depend on your very own resources and then later saying that things are just too hard.

“I’ve never met a beautiful soul without an ugly story to tell. The greater your test, the greater your testimony.” ~Tony Gaskins

  • “I can’t wait, I need a breakthrough right now”

The sentence just sounds like someone is so impatient. I always believe that the most important material of Christianity is humility, and I still believe it is. But couple of days ago I just realized that patience is just right after that. We can act as a humble person, but without patience we might not be able to reach the plan God has prepared for us. Without it, it is so easy for us to finally screw things up. Be patient. Trust Him and wait for Him, it’s worth the wait. And foremost, no matter how long we should wait, we will wait with patience.

  • “It’s not my fault”

Oh I like this one. When people wrong you, this is exactly what will appear in your head. It is so easy to blame others for our problems. And Joyce was saying a real thing when she said this, “It feels so good to tell people how someone hurts you. How you are a victim.” I would add that it feels even better to see them nodding their heads as we tell them the story. We get back-ups, they are agreeing with us that we didn’t do anything wrong and it’s not our fault. But seriously, how is your life going to change by that? We need to let it go, and see point number one: we have to stop looking back. Hold His hand and move forward.  Letting go means to get it out of your head and to get it out of your mouth. You need to stop thinking about it and you definitely need to stop talking about it. It takes time, but be patient and you’ll see the fruit. This is particularly a serious message for all the ladies out there 😉

At the almost-end of her sermon Joyce was saying this:

Be determined to conquer your problems. Do what you need to do. God is with you.

Keep the Faith

It’s been months since I posted the last piece of my blog. The easiest excuse, as you maybe already thought, I was busy. The particular word popped up in my head while I was browsing and re-reading my own old postings the other day. The truth is, I was actually busy and I’ve been everywhere, business trips and things. But then I think, is that excuse acceptable?

Let me break it down briefly: when I was reading my old postings, I was and am amazed of the words I stated there and could not believe that I was actually the person who wrote that. Don’t worry, I really did. But am not  going to brag about it, because it’s not something I should take credit from. As far as I can remember, I wrote those postings during my personal struggle, my difficult times. Odd but I realize that the most intimate moments I had with God were when I was troubled. Not that it’s a bad thing, but I really want to keep it at its best even when everything is at ease in my life. Judging from what I just explained, I came to a conclusion that I’m not as overwhelmed with His grace as I was back then. Oh yes He showered me with His grace just alright but I was the one who has not been received what He was trying to give me at prime level. Super briefly: God’s wisdom that I always shared through my blog only possible when I truly engage with Him. Less entries equals bad connection.

For the Lord gives skillful and godly Wisdom; from His mouth come knowledge and understanding. Proverbs 2:6

It is very easy to turn away from God or mildly speaking to not really paying attention and really listen to His voice while we are living in this world. Me and my friends talked about “What is the strongest factor that can distance us from God” during our bible study awhile ago and the answers were vary, from guys to too much work. But friends, let’s make it broad, how many of you checked your cell phone first time in the morning when you woke up instead of thanked God for a well rest you had? Or refused to leave the couch to pray or read the bible because your favorite TV show was on at that moment? The fact is, all this earthly things could be your god. Your cell phone, your boyfriend/girlfriend, your successful business, your TV, and even your dog or your emotion. God gave us all those things to color our life, not to have control over. We can enjoy it as long as we know our priority, God. Know the limit. Self control is one of the fruit of the spirit, yet as I have said in the past is the hardest thing to do.

We can justify our thoughts and ideas by breaking the limits once in the while, but then once becomes often and often becomes habit. The last thing you know, you already walked away from Him so far that you are lost. The major thing to do during this situation is to maintain our mind and put His words as righteousness-measurement by default. We are human and we are limited with lots of things as very often we are so firm on doing wrong things. Well, here’s what the bible says about that:

There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death. Proverbs 14:12

Let me share my answer during the bible study I had with my friends earlier: “Believe it or not, at the moment my life is very much at ease. Work is fine, financial is fine, my family is doing great..seems like everything is under control. But yet I don’t feel close to God as I did before. I never thought I would say this, but I think when nothing happen can distance us from God”. That’s the truth.

So then what should we do about this? Well, I committed to never stop trying, to fight myself really hard if I have to. Whatever happens, I’m still going to thank God first time in the morning and ask Him to give me peace and joy to go throughout the day. Most of all, I ask Him with all my heart to give me faith so strong that it can move a mountain.

As I type and looking up for reference in the bible, God led me to this particular verse James 1:2-18. Read on, it’s really good.

It’s amazing how He works on people who truly asked and believe, isn’t?

Keep the faith!